Plenty of Fish and Tinder Dating Website Review

Like most 21 year old single females, I want to meet new people, date, and potentially have a relationship with a nice guy! I'm not really a big fan of going out and partying and when I do I'm usually pretty shy (until I get a good buzz going on! Lol.), and since I'm more mature than most people my age, it's hard for me to meet people I have a connection with. So, I had the bright idea to try two online dating websites, Plenty of Fish and Tinder.

I have had some pretty bad luck with the dating scene. I have been in quite a few, VERY short relationships. I'm talking usually only a few weeks (Is that even considered a relationship?!), and then I get screwed over or I realize the guy is a POS.


I thought that with the help of some dating websites, my bad luck with men would change. I was so wrong!  

One of the first "dating" sites I tried was Tinder. I say "dating" because it's not dating. It's a bunch of guys (and probably women too...I don't roll that way so I wouldn't know!) looking for hook ups. I had heard on TV that Tinder was good for that and that couldn't be more true! These guys don't want relationships and most of them aren't even worried about getting to know you to have a friendship. They just want a booty call! If you are just looking for sex, Tinder is the perfect website to use.

The second site I have tried is Plenty of Fish (POF). I have to admit this site is a little better than Tinder but there are some creeps on there! I have met one or 2 guys from POF that I thought could have some potential but it just didn't work out for whatever reason (like they are still hung up on their baby mama!).

The only reason I still have a POF account now is because I find it entertaining! Some of the profiles on there crack me up! The other night I had a guy send me a message and his profile picture was a picture of an engagement ring! Maybe this is just me, but that just makes him look desperate. It was such a turn off! This guy was ready to get married to the first girl that showed him any interest. Well, it wasn't going to be me! That's not appealing to me whatsoever!

If you are single and need some cheap entertainment, make a Tinder or a POF account but don't go on there with the expectation to find a serious relationship because 9 times out of 10 you won't find it!

5 Things That Help With Depression

I have dealt with depression and bipolar disorder since I was in middle school (I'm 21 years old now). Below is a list of 5 things that help me with my depression and mood swings.

1. Listen to music. Music is like therapy to me. There is always a song that fits the mood I'm in. When I'm sad I will play one of my favorite slow songs and I will sing to the top of my lungs! If I'm having guy problems, there is always a song the describes how I feel.

2. Go for a ride. When I'm depressed or have a lot on my mind one of my favorite things to do is to ride around on the back roads. I live in the country where there are a lot of farms and corn fields so sometimes I feel like I'm in the middle of nowhere and it's really nice. If you live in a city, this might not be as relaxing for you. Maybe you're one of those people that loves the city life so this might work for you. By the way, this is usually when listening to music comes in handy! Crank up the volume! 

3. Make plans. One thing that really helps me when I'm depressed is to make plans. Make plans to go out with your friends! When I make plans, I have something to look forward to. When I don't feel like getting out of bed, looking forward to something takes the edge off of depression. I feel like I'm not as depressed if I have something to look forward to!

4. Go out to eat. When I'm depressed and feeling like the whole world is against me, I love to go out to eat to my favorite restaurant. It's usually Applebee's! When I'm mad at the world, I always crave Applebee's boneless hot wings! As soon as they hit my mouth, it's like I'm in heaven! The taste just makes me so happy!

5. Take a bubble bath. I can sit in a nice, relaxing bubble bath for hours! I can just sit there and forget about the world...or cry if I need to! I always turn on Pandora (music) when I'm in the bathtub. It makes me feel so much better!

This is a list of activities that help me. They might not work for everyone!

 

Growing Up Duggar Review

If you are like me, you are obsessed with The Duggar Family from 19 Kids and Counting! I love watching 19 Kids and Counting! Even the reruns! The 4 oldest Duggar girls have written a book about relationships called, Growing Up Duggar. As much as I love the Duggar family, I wasn't sure I would be interested in reading this book but I downloaded it on my Kindle anyway.

I must say, I absolutely LOVED this book! I did not want to put this book down! These girls didn't just talk about relationships with boyfriends but relationships with their siblings, their parents, and their culture.

I'm not a very religious person, but I was inspired by how much God plays a part in their lives. Even if you are not a believer in God, you will still enjoy this book. The Duggar girls share a lot of stories from living with a large family to their time spent in foreign countries.

This book is perfect for young girls, but it would also be a great read for anyone that is working on their relationships with loved ones!

What's your normal blood sugar?

I think every diabetic has their own "normal" blood sugar but it's not always healthy. Sometimes when your blood sugar is in the normal range, you don't feel good. I think that's what is happening to me. I feel the best when my blood sugar is between 150-250 and that is not good!



I admit that I don't take care of myself like I should. I shouldn't say I do this all the time but I go through phases. I can go days, weeks, and even months where I am very on top of things. When my CGM is telling me my blood sugar is over 200-250, I do a correction and I'm very good about counting carbs instead of just guessing. But then I start slacking. I honestly just don't care sometimes that my blood sugar is over 200 so I don't do a correction. I might eat a cookie or 2 and not give myself insulin for it or I might just give myself part of the insulin I'm supposed to take. Because of doing this, my body has gotten use to having a high blood sugar.

For the last couple of weeks, I have been waking up in the morning with a blood sugar over 200. I am very aware of the reason. I like to get up in the middle of the night for snacks and like I said before I don't bolus (give myself insulin through my insulin pump), or I don't bolus for everything I eat. So, last night when I had a snack, I counted carbs and bolused like I'm supposed to. When I woke up this morning, I had a great blood sugar of 120! BUT I didn't feel good. I didn't have any energy. I felt like I had to eat something to get it higher so I would feel good again. I did eat and I bolused the correct amount. After that, I did some cleaning and ran a couple errands. After I sat down, I didn't feel good again. I checked my blood sugar and it was 89. It was on the lower side but it's right where it's supposed to be before a meal. What I'm trying to get at is that when you let your blood sugar stay on the higher side, your body gets use to it and your body thinks that's where it's supposed to be. THIS IS NOT GOOD! I am well aware of this.

Why do I let this happen? Because sometimes I just want to feel like a regular person. I want to be able to eat without pulling out my gadgets to test my blood sugar and give myself insulin. I don't want to have to worry about my blood sugar going low when I'm out and about living my life. Diabetes sucks ass! It's a full time job plus a few part time jobs put together. There are no breaks or days off. I know I'm just putting myself at risk for complications down the road. With that being said, I need to get myself back on track. I go to my endocrinologist next week and I'm sure he's going to have a field day with me. I'm not looking forward to it at all.

Birth Control and Depression Part 2

I haven't posted since February. My last blog post was about birth control and how it increased depression, bipolar, etc. Since then I have tried the Paraguard IUD and once again I was not happy with it.

Unlike other birth control, this IUD didn't have any hormones in it so I figured it was worth trying. I think I had the IUD for about a month before I decided to take it out. The entire time I had it, I had the worse cramps. They were worse than menstrual cramps. So, I do not recommend an IUD.

 I started seeing a new doctor and so I explained to her my problem with birth control. She told me about this one birth control that didn't have as much hormone in it so it might not interfere with my moods. It's only 85% effective but once again I figured it was worth a shot.

By the second day of taking it I was already having mood swings. I was going from one extreme to the next. Yeah, I know I just about do this every day even without birth control but now it was worse.


 I've been taking the pill now for 5 days and guess what? I'm not happy with it. The littlest things are making me feel like I could punch someone in the face. I couldn't find something in my purse and you probably would have thought the world was ending. I went from being mellow and chilled out to extremely pissed off and ready to fight in a matter of seconds....over something so stupid.




I have also noticed that I've been in a depressed kind of mood for a few days. I'm not really sad about anything but I'm not very cheerful, and I'm not in the mood to be around people. I hate it. I hate birth control.

Now I have to decide whether or not I want to stick it out for another month or 2 to see if it improves (I highly doubt this is going to happen.) or if I just want to throw the pills away right now and be done with it. I'm going to be bipolar with or without the pills but just how shitty do I really want to feel?  I hate this and wish I could just be "normal" for a change but once again I am reminded how challenging my life really is. But I do know it could be a lot worse. It's just hard to look at it that way sometimes.

Birth Control and Depression

I'm not really sure if a lot of people read my blogs but I still try to post whenever I get time or whenever I need to vent. I've posted before about my experience with depression, anxiety, etc. I have recently just figured out something that could of helped me a long time ago. If you're a dude, this post does not pertain to you and won't help you out any. If you are someone that feels uncomfortable reading about personal information then you probably shouldn't read this.

Birth control makes your depression and mood swings worse! Now, I'm not saying it is the cause of why you are depressed but it definitely does not help.

 Several months ago I asked my psychiatrist if my depression and mood swings could be hormone related. He told me if I was an older women he would consider it but he didn't think that had anything to do with it. I then got to thinking about birth control and why women take a pill or insert a device inside their body that releases hormones. Why put something in your body if it's not suppose to be there? Yeah I get that you take that stuff so you don't get pregnant but it's still weird to think about. So then I got the idea that maybe all the extra hormones being put in my body is what's causing me to be "crazy". And I say crazy because some days that's exactly how I feel. So back in October I went off the pill for two months. I felt better than I had in a long time. I still had my days when I was depressed or emotional but it wasn't near as bad as it was when I was on the pill. 

  I then I got worried that I was going to get pregnant so I decided to go back on it. Within two weeks, I was going crazy again. I felt like I was losing my mind. It was terrible. After that I had finally had enough. After that month I wasn't taking the pill anymore. I told my doctor about what had been going on and she told me  that I should not be on birth control anymore for the rest of my life. Those words really scared me. I would have to be super super careful from then on. It was either feel insane 100% of the time or take the risk of getting knocked up. (and no I'm not that girl that spreads her legs every chance she gets but we all know things happen. Especially when you find the right person.) 

I am in no way shape or form telling you that you need to stop taking your birth control. If you think there is a problem with your pills you need to talk to your doctor. There might be other options for you. But if you are like me and have been dealing with depression and severe mood swings, this might be something to think about. Some women might not even realize birth control can do this to you but it can! I feel a little weird putting this much of my personal life on the internet where everyone can see it but if it helps another young lady then it's worth it. That's why I started this blog. I want to help people. 

If you have read this post and feel the need to give me the sex talk about condoms and why birth control is important, don't waste your time. I'm old enough to know about that mess. I don't need someone to lecture me about it whether it be friends, family, or some random person that googled birth control! Thanks for reading! :)

Medical Procedures and Diabetes

For most people, any kind of medical procedure where you can't eat is usually pretty simple. It gets a little complicated for diabetics. Tomorrow morning I go for an endoscopy. I can't eat anything solid after midnight. I am allowed to have clear liquids that aren't red or purple. So, if my blood sugar does go low in the middle of the night or even right before the procedure, I can drink sprite, or gingerale.

When I had my wisdom teeth out, I was not allowed to have anything to eat or drink. So of course there's the question, "What if my blood sugar goes low?" Of course if that was to happen you would eat. But then you might have to reschedule your procedure for another day or another time because you have food in your stomach that's not suppose to be there.

Another concern when I have a procedure done and I'm sedated is who is going to make sure my blood sugar doesn't drop and if it does drop do they have what they need to bring it up while I'm still asleep. When I had my wisdom teeth taken out I was at the hospital so I wasn't too worried about it. Tomorrow my procedure is right at the doctor's office so I'm a little nervous. With diabetics, there is so much more at risk and so many more safety precautions you have to take when you are being sedated. This is just one of the many things people don't realize comes along with diabetes. Being sedated is already a little scary but when you add your blood sugar into the mix it's even more scary! I'm sure I will be fine though. It's just a lot to think about. I almost wish this procedure was being done at the hospital. I would feel more safe.

When I had my wisdom teeth taken out I had to cut back on my insulin the night before because I couldn't eat anything. By the time I came out of surgery my blood sugar was over 400. They of course gave me some insulin and wouldn't let me leave recovery until it came down. It was pretty scary though. Hopefully everything will go ok tonight and into tomorrow morning without any complications! We will see!