Birth Control and Depression Part 2

I haven't posted since February. My last blog post was about birth control and how it increased depression, bipolar, etc. Since then I have tried the Paraguard IUD and once again I was not happy with it.

Unlike other birth control, this IUD didn't have any hormones in it so I figured it was worth trying. I think I had the IUD for about a month before I decided to take it out. The entire time I had it, I had the worse cramps. They were worse than menstrual cramps. So, I do not recommend an IUD.

 I started seeing a new doctor and so I explained to her my problem with birth control. She told me about this one birth control that didn't have as much hormone in it so it might not interfere with my moods. It's only 85% effective but once again I figured it was worth a shot.

By the second day of taking it I was already having mood swings. I was going from one extreme to the next. Yeah, I know I just about do this every day even without birth control but now it was worse.


 I've been taking the pill now for 5 days and guess what? I'm not happy with it. The littlest things are making me feel like I could punch someone in the face. I couldn't find something in my purse and you probably would have thought the world was ending. I went from being mellow and chilled out to extremely pissed off and ready to fight in a matter of seconds....over something so stupid.




I have also noticed that I've been in a depressed kind of mood for a few days. I'm not really sad about anything but I'm not very cheerful, and I'm not in the mood to be around people. I hate it. I hate birth control.

Now I have to decide whether or not I want to stick it out for another month or 2 to see if it improves (I highly doubt this is going to happen.) or if I just want to throw the pills away right now and be done with it. I'm going to be bipolar with or without the pills but just how shitty do I really want to feel?  I hate this and wish I could just be "normal" for a change but once again I am reminded how challenging my life really is. But I do know it could be a lot worse. It's just hard to look at it that way sometimes.

Birth Control and Depression

I'm not really sure if a lot of people read my blogs but I still try to post whenever I get time or whenever I need to vent. I've posted before about my experience with depression, anxiety, etc. I have recently just figured out something that could of helped me a long time ago. If you're a dude, this post does not pertain to you and won't help you out any. If you are someone that feels uncomfortable reading about personal information then you probably shouldn't read this.

Birth control makes your depression and mood swings worse! Now, I'm not saying it is the cause of why you are depressed but it definitely does not help.

 Several months ago I asked my psychiatrist if my depression and mood swings could be hormone related. He told me if I was an older women he would consider it but he didn't think that had anything to do with it. I then got to thinking about birth control and why women take a pill or insert a device inside their body that releases hormones. Why put something in your body if it's not suppose to be there? Yeah I get that you take that stuff so you don't get pregnant but it's still weird to think about. So then I got the idea that maybe all the extra hormones being put in my body is what's causing me to be "crazy". And I say crazy because some days that's exactly how I feel. So back in October I went off the pill for two months. I felt better than I had in a long time. I still had my days when I was depressed or emotional but it wasn't near as bad as it was when I was on the pill. 

  I then I got worried that I was going to get pregnant so I decided to go back on it. Within two weeks, I was going crazy again. I felt like I was losing my mind. It was terrible. After that I had finally had enough. After that month I wasn't taking the pill anymore. I told my doctor about what had been going on and she told me  that I should not be on birth control anymore for the rest of my life. Those words really scared me. I would have to be super super careful from then on. It was either feel insane 100% of the time or take the risk of getting knocked up. (and no I'm not that girl that spreads her legs every chance she gets but we all know things happen. Especially when you find the right person.) 

I am in no way shape or form telling you that you need to stop taking your birth control. If you think there is a problem with your pills you need to talk to your doctor. There might be other options for you. But if you are like me and have been dealing with depression and severe mood swings, this might be something to think about. Some women might not even realize birth control can do this to you but it can! I feel a little weird putting this much of my personal life on the internet where everyone can see it but if it helps another young lady then it's worth it. That's why I started this blog. I want to help people. 

If you have read this post and feel the need to give me the sex talk about condoms and why birth control is important, don't waste your time. I'm old enough to know about that mess. I don't need someone to lecture me about it whether it be friends, family, or some random person that googled birth control! Thanks for reading! :)

Falling behind....

So as a lot if you have probably noticed I haven't blogged in a LONG time! I'm not sure why I'm falling behind but I'm going to try to start blogging again. It's something I really enjoy doing...I love helping other diabetics or at least give others the peace of mind knowing there are other people with Type 1 diabetes. I also want to start talking a lot about my struggle with depression, and bipolar disorder. So keep checking in for more updates! :)